If you had told me just two years ago that my epic failures would have paved the way for me to be on track to living my ideal life, I would have probably punched you in the arm and blocked you. (maybe)
First of all, don’t call out my failures like that. Second, don’t lie!
All I could see then, was how everything was out of control, how exhausted I was ,and how sure I was that it was only a matter of time before everything went tits up again.
I was seriously blinded to the fact that just like in those books I love, I – the heroine of this piece- was simply going through her growing pains that would finally open her eyes to the truth about what she soul deeply wanted and lead her on the path to getting it.
( Hindsight is an amazing thing when you finally get it, but in the moment, these events feel like you’re drowning in a deep abyss and ain’t glamorous or as fun as they make it seem in the books and movies!)
And if you had told me that I could turn my life around through journaling, there would have been a real high possibility that I would have thrown water at you and told you to ‘ Buzz off’.
And it’s not because I didn’t like journaling, rather it was HOW I had been journaling that would have made me think that you were just being annoying for no reason … and possibly taunting me.
For me, journaling was tantamount to simply reporting the details of my day into a book, to vent about something or to just express myself in a safe-ish and private place, with some thoughts about how I felt about an event, but certainly not as I use it now.
It was not an activity I saw being even remotely possible to being described as ‘ life changing’ or even something that could help me in real time, so you cannot begin to imagine my shock when I started learning about journaling prompts and actually tried them out for 10 days!
It was such an eye-opener for me!
Who knew, I could get this level of insight into myself from just expressing myself on paper?
I had enrolled in a free event with Amanda Frances, and it was to help entrepreneurs to release the blocks they had around their businesses and money, while guiding us to being honest about how we envisioned them to function and convert.
Now Amanda is one of the few business coaches who believes that mindset goes a long ass way towards success in all forms and so, her homework was in the form of journaling prompts.
And these prompts really opened up my world to what I had OBVIOUSLY been missing out on for way too long.
With the prompts, I had to really zero in on the question and be honest with myself about the corresponding answer, since that would determine how I structured the business and get those results I was craving.
This process also showed me just how much I was still lying to myself and attempting to keep even my thoughts about my future and my desires as safe and vague as possible.
It brought home with startling clarity that if I was still playing small even to myself, then I was in a real bad way after all and I was tired of that!
I was tired of feeling like I couldn’t express my real wants even to myself because the crushing disappointment of not finding a way to make them a reality may send me crazy.
I was tired of feeling like I was being called for so much more but in the moment being stuck AF and could not see the trees for the bushes.
I was exhausted living in the problem and not allowing myself to believe that I was capable of the solution.
I had somewhere along the way accepted that failure was more likely and reasonable an outcome than me actually achieving what I wanted to.
I was so over all of that!
I wanted to be honest with myself finally and I could feel this block in my brain, hiding my true wants away from me, in the same manner as when I hide sweets from my 5 year old cousin- just out of reach.
It was beyond infuriating and in my frustration, I challenged myself to flip the script and instead of getting angry and petulant, I’d calm down and get to the bottom of this.
So I took the time to clear my mind ( not easy at all!) , to relax my breathing, and to focus on the truth of the questions presented to me.
I also allowed myself to not stress about the length of my answers, rather just on being honest and not shying away from the truth, even as my brain tried and kept trying to switch gears. Honestly, it felt like i was trying to wrangle a stubborn horse into a pen!
And do you know what?
It brought such clarity to my life; I started to get excited again and my brain reignited with so many ideas for what I wanted to implement in my future and business. I felt some of the tension I’d had from wrangling my thoughts and some of my limiting beliefs melt away and I felt lighter.
My head no longer hurt and felt foggy, my shoulders were suspiciously looser and my whole body was buzzing with a very different type of energy.
Re-reading my answers a day later- because I believe in letting things marinate- I allowed them to trigger whatever emotion denoted within me and gave myself permission to simply feel them.
To not scrutinize them, or wrestle with them but to simply let them wash over me like waves crashing on the sandy shores and allow my real thoughts to come to light from the vault in my mind.
Allowed them to challenge, inspire and dare me to do something about them, to turn them from fleeting thoughts triggered by intuitive nudges into aligned actions.
And that was what I did.
For those who know me, you know that I love writing things down and creating resources (I have too many outlined ideas for projects! Guys it’s a problem!).
So that is what I did.
I set pen to paper and created the Level Up Journal Prompter, because I needed to go through the self –reflective process again, but this time the target would not be for my business, rather it would be for my life.
I had started to feel disconnected from myself in ways that defy explanation and meditation was just not enough to help me to feel reconnected again, plus I was listening to a lot of mindset coaches and they introduced the concept of ‘ Next Level Self’ which for all intents and purposes was your ideal, leveled up version of self.
The version of you that has moved past your blocks, is living the life you could only have dreamt of right now and has an improved mindset.
And I knew that to get to the true, honest to God version of my leveled up self I had to go through the steps. I had to reconnect with myself first- become consciously aware of whom I was right now, and become aware of the other factors that would be impacting on my growth.
So I sat down, created the questions, answered them, and guided myself along the path to not only reconnecting to who I am right now, but also who I am growing into!
That is the power of the Level Up Journal Prompter.
Those who have already bought it since its launch this year, told me that it has helped them to become more aware of themselves, realize just what triggered their limiting beliefs, helped them to repurpose them and has challenged them to be more honest about what they really want out of life and what energy and effort they were truthfully going to put into making those thoughts reality.
It’s all about leveling up and growing into an enhanced you, with love, understanding and the strength accumulated for the you of right now!
Once you have learnt how to truly reconnect with yourself and allow yourself to grow or ‘level up’ everything else gets to work a whole lot better.
Those worries that have been plaguing you, that you’ve been shoving down, they become indicators and add to your strategies list.
Those people, who always try to use your insecurities against you, are suddenly powerless because you now are able to create and enforce your boundaries.
That feeling of being lost, disappears because you now have a Light Me up list and know yourself even better.
Those tight shoulders and strained back that are always bearing the load of your stresses can finally unwind and relax, because you’ve figured out the best way to actually release your stress, so you have more fun, laugh more and spend more time with those you want to.
The Level Up Journal Prompter comes with 9 unique themes, all designed to help you explore and delve deeply into the best thing ever created in this dimension- You and guides you to see yourself for real.
It also helps to show how far you’ve already come and how to bridge the gap from the awesome you now to the Next Level version of you!