When manifesting, people become more aware of their thoughts, of the words they speak and the way they think about themselves, and so they become very, very paranoid about what many address as ‘ negative thoughts’.
Of course your words have power, of course your thoughts have power and of course the way you think about yourself is powerful.
You are a powerful, divine being!
You are a million to one in a lifetime chance of being yourself, being in this time and space and being blessed with the talents, world view and ability to share joy to others. You are a unique being.
And with great power, comes great responsibilities.
So yes, you do need to be aware of your thoughts, words and actions because they are all working in conjunction to send signals to the Divine Spirit that’s only job is to give you what you demand.
Think of the Universe/ Holy Spirit as a benevolent God that is totally whipped for you. They want to give you every single thing you want, but here’s the catch.
They have to wait for you to tell them what you want ( free will and all that) and they have no real understanding of good / bad, their language is one of energy and the frequency of which that energy vibrates when it reaches them.
So if you’re feeding your fear based state, you’ll get more problems, more reasons to stress to F out and more of all the things you say you don’t want.
Because that’s all you’re thinking about, all you’re talking about, all you believe and expect will follow you in your life.
So you look for evidence that you are NOT going to make it, and you obsess over it. When asked what you don’t want, you know those answers better than the back of your own hand. And let’s be honest, we’ve all been in this state for years. All learnt to maneuver around life based on the things we fear ( that’s how we survived).
And that’s also the reason when we do get the things we want, they happen in such a way that it further feeds our fear addiction, our stress and they do not stay good for the length of time they should.
So to move from a fear based state to one of love, so that you actually start getting what you desire , want and are being called to have, you have to do the same thing you’ve been doing with fear, but with love.
So you focus on the things you want, love the feeling of them, you understand that they will come ( same as with fear, when they do), you find evidence that your life is awesome and moving in a direction of awesome and you allow yourself to connect to you more.
To truly move, you need to address those same ‘negative emotions’, and to do that, you have to tune into them.
They are not here to hurt you, but to feed what you allow them to. They are here to test, to challenge and based on your reaction, your ego ( a vital part of your subconscious personality and the vessel through with the Universe/ Holy Spirit protects you) will continue to feed your thoughts to help you stay safe. This will manifest as either more fear or a feeling of confident intuition.
So no it’s not at all wrong to tune into your ‘negative’ thoughts or emotions. In fact what you should do is allow them to come into your mind, analyze them and listen to what they are actually telling you.
To help you with that, I’m gonna give you an exclusive exercise taken from the Level Up Journal Prompter, where you face your feelings and understand what they are actually telling you.
Tune into you right now and just be. No distractions, no interruptions, just be one with your thoughts and breathe as you are guided to, slowly and deeply.
What is an emotion or thought you are resistant to feeling or thinking.
Identify it. Look at it. Is it ultimately true?
What is present underneath that emotion?
Look at that. Is it true?
Feel your way through your various emotions, noticing the stories you’ve been telling yourself.
Observing what you’ve been telling yourself about your life or goals that do not feel good.
Become aware that these are all concepts and ideas that can be shifted.
What idea, concept, or story would feel better than the one you have been telling to yourself?
Take a break for 10 minutes a day at least and focus on the good feelings and thoughts that are now allowed to surround your happy goals.
Journal on your findings.
For more amazing exercises, homework, affirmations and journal prompts, on understanding your mindset better, add this book to your reading list right now.
The true test of raising your positive energy and trying to attract more miracles into your life comes in the midst of the toughest, roughest and most uncertain times of your life.
It is very easy, I recognise now to say you will ‘ try’ something when you feel safe with time, when you have someone who is helping your financially, and when your present allows you some form of security, so you have the luxury of ‘ trying something’.
However, as I found out very recently, the moment something happens to upset that delicate balance, when something snatches away your security blanket, and opens your eyes to an all new extent of challenges, problems and negative emotions, it is also really freaking easy to abandon your lessons of inner peace, inner healing and give yourself over to despair, to obsessing about the plethora of deadline sensitive challenges and remove yourself from any spark of enjoyment.
My moment came in the early morning around 2 am in the Queen Elizabeth Hospital as a doctor informed me, my brother and my Mom that my Dad, who seemed fine just a few hours ago was now gone.
In those moments, I felt nothing, but my body was reacting all on its own. I wanted to laugh at the sheer insanity of what she was saying and cry when it hit me that this was real. Just like that, my security blanket was ripped away and there laid stark in front of me was a black hole.
The black hole of responsibility and impotence, because my Dad was the main breadwinner of the family ( pun intended as he was a baker) and now he was gone. In my head, all I saw was how useless I am. How much I had been relying on him and that triggered guilt, fear, anger and loads of grief and devastation.
And for this whole week I’ve been playing games with my feelings, ignoring them, basically freezing them out because I told myself I no longer have time. I felt atrociously stupid for thinking I could attract abundance and flung myself as I always do when these kinds of things happen into crisis mode.
I resigned myself by the 4th day to have to suck it up and give up on any dreams I had, because life was not about happiness, but survival and this was all I was going to have.
Grief is a funny thing and it makes you see things in very new ways, not all great. Yet, something in me, this voice that had been cultivating since the beginning of this year, this voice that suggested the challenge of raising my positive energy and told me to surrender, wouldn’t let me give into my own pity-party.
It wouldn’t allow me to reconstruct the dark cape my new challenges and problems were trying to cover me back in. It wouldn’t let me go back into the black hole from which I have been trying to will myself out of years.
And I’ll be honest with you, it is very easy to feel despondent when you’re flat out broke, when it feels as if nothing you do works and that you maybe too idealistic to play the games of reality. It is not easy to change old paradigms, especially when they seem to be all you have to protect your survival when things go horribly wrong.
And I was deep into doubting myself, deep into layering on piles and piles of self castigation, self pity and antipathy.
And then one day, I went back to my blog and listened to some of my Riffing with Ashlee episodes that I had created in those moments of glorious insight and realised that the woman who said those things, who was working so hard on her mindset and had the goal of living a life filled with happiness should not be abandoned.
Why should I honour my Dad’s life by killing all the life within me?
He sacrificed daily for me to be able to bring this dream of my ideal lifestyle to fruition. He listened to me, had faith in me and how ungrateful would I be to give it all up just because a new obstacle appeared?
A voice in my mind…- my intuition maybe-, is telling me to be grateful and appreciative of the times, experiences and moments we had together. It’s telling me to remember to have fun with what I’m doing and trust that God and Universe ALWAYS have my back.
It’s telling me to be faithful and to surrender to the problems, to the anxiety, instead of obsessing over what it all means. To catalogue all the things that are telling me that everything is going to be ok.
This means putting in effort to be mindful of your feelings and to realise that it’s beyond ok to let fun in. That it is ok to allow fun and positivity into your life no matter how dark a time you are going through.
To prioritise yourself health, physical, emotional, mental, spiritual and social over everything else and to not let others dictate how you should feel, what you should do or to give up on what is important to you.
It’s a tough lesson, I won’t lie, but it really is one of the biggest tests I’ve gone through in my life!
It’s going to feel like it’s you against everything and it will even feel as if you’re expendable, worthless and wasting time, but the truth is…you’re not any of those things.
You are brave, strong, wise and beautiful for realising that adding to the world’s miasma is the wrong path. You’re courageous for listening and tuning into yourself and you are absolutely gorgeous for realising that God/ the Universe has brought you so far, not to abandon you, but to prepare you for the next step.
For me, it’s a test of faith, commitment and to see if I really am practicing what I preach, what I say I believe and yeah, this was terrifying, but not impossible. It’s heart wrenching, but not enough for me to give up on myself.
So I choose to take away from this experience that it was my Dad’s time, it was gratefully quick, and he was not alone and be grateful that my Mom and I are still able to eat, sleep and worry about things. We are in a tough spot, yes, but it won’t be forever and there are so many things we can both choose to branch out in now.
My Dad is gone.
I’m praying he is at peace and reconciled with the way his life was. Just as you don’t know when you’re about to enter this world, you also don’t know when you’re about to leave it. And you have to remember daily that this time, this journey, these experiences are all gifts, to be enjoyed to add more love to the world.
You made it to the end! Wooot!
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I have been going through something last week and it has been making me feel like I want to crawl out of my skin, like there is a mass of dark energy within me, that is about to explode, like all I want to do is weep.
It’s a weird feeling for someone who wants to embrace and share joy in her life. It’s an extra weird feeling for someone who is expressing gratitude for all she has ( no matter how tiny or inconsequential it may seem) every morning and is trying to shift her mindset from the death grip of fear into one of positive growth.
I know it takes time people, but let me be very clear about this.
This feeling sucks balls.
Saturday morning I woke up in a f#$king mood.
My parents were talking and to me were way too energized for so early in the morning to be their querulous selves and I just could not deal.
The jokes were not funny to me and I just wanted quiet. I wanted for no one to be talking to me. For no one to be sharing, arguing or interacting with me.
I wanted to watch wrestling in peace.
It was not to be.
And even as I tried to quell the sudden yet ferocious surge of pure annoyance, it just settled in me like a geyser a hairsbreadth away from exploding and burning everything in its wake.
And because of this, I was mean to my little cousin and after seeing the hurt on her pretty face, I felt like such an asshole. It hurt me too, but the miasma that I was in, was stronger than both of us.
Mind you, it wasn’t that I did anything to her, it was rather, I could not make myself smile at her and once again the parents did not help matters. And yes I got called out for being a bitch, which I can admit now, hours later I totally was.
As the day progressed, my mood did not truly improve, there was something in me that was eating away at the very idea of joy and it was not the wonky weather.
I watched a movie and just allowed the day to pass, but soon my niece and nephew came over and their antics were more than enough to banish the lethargic fog that had been consuming me.
Everything about them fascinates me, how they are communicating better, the smiles, the determination, the twin-tuition and of course the dancing and the boisterous fake laughing.
In those moments I realized with astounding clarity that I was being a whiny brat yet again. I was not living life and enjoying it, I was not laughing just because I could, nor was I allowing myself to just speak my truth.
In fact, over the last few days, I had basically chosen doubt, frustration and fear as my companions and had been serving them a buffet of my dreams, hopes and aspirations.
Instead of just enjoying what I was doing, I sucked the glittery, rainbow fun out of all my ideas, sadistically holding them under the fog of my travel companions, because I was too busy convincing myself they were awful ideas.
Yet, here were these happy babies, rolling with the punches, finding entertainment and demanding love and affection, while expecting it easily. Here they were dimples flashing, hands clapping, showing me that not only were they highly intelligent, they were also fast and when necessary very crafty.
How can you stay grumpy in those moments?
So later when my little cousin re-appeared, looked at me and decided to give me some space initially, before seizing her opportunity to be close to me- loving me unconditionally, I apologized for that morning’s behaviour and asked for forgiveness which was immediately granted.
I took some painkillers for the headache I got from eating too late and was sitting at the table, head resting on my forearm on the table, when she came over to sit on top of me. She makes space people. I’ll never understand how she somehow does that when there is only a sliver before to fit her.
We sang folk songs, played a variety of games and I even let her play in my hair. The resulting hairstyle was wild, yet very chic and I laughed right along with her.
A part of that was my way of apologizing, but like 85% was because I was also having fun and I remember playing in the hair of another lady who would let me brush hers, while I filled her in on my latest thoughts.
So I decided to play it forward. What’s the harm in having fun with a 6 year old, who actually enjoys your existence?
There isn’t one.
So yeah, Saturday was a learning curve for me, it made me very, very, very aware of the excuses I was still hiding behind, the bullshit I was trying to pretend I enjoyed and my own fears.
It also made me realize what being happy is about . Spending the time with these children, all under the age of 7 reminded me what life and living is actually about.
It’s not about the money or lack thereof, it’s not about worrying if anyone will read your tales with you make that public or if you’re shouting into the void, it’s not about being perfect, it is however about accepting yourself, laughing because you can and CHOOSING to embrace joy and sharing it.
It’s not that you hate your life; it’s that you know that it can be even better!
You know your life can be so much more and, you feel it in your gut, you feel it every time you think of what you’d rather be doing in this very instance if things would only FINALLY go your way.
You know it’s possible to live this free, adventurous and relaxed lifestyle, because whenever you go on your social media, there are hundreds of stories about those who left their job and are now vacationing in Bali, can work whenever and wherever they want to, are constantly partying but most of all, what really attracts you to the accounts are the looks of total bliss and freedom they are expressing.
And those images, stories and experiences are what draw you like a magnet to their accounts.
You gobble up their stories of living a fully free life, of making money in their sleep, of pursuing their dreams effortlessly and flawlessly and you compare that to your own seemingly boring and staid existence while longing settles deep inside.
Why can’t that be you?
Why can’t you be the one sharing the stories of living this fabulous life, of going to the parties, of rubbing shoulders with amazing people, of buying whatever you want, going wherever you want when you want?
Why are you only sitting on the sidelines, pining over someone else’s lifestyle , deciding as you want more that your own life will never even be close to theirs?
So you get envious, frustrated, angry, jealous, exhausted and stressed out because you no longer feel as if your life measures up or will ever get even truly close to all the things you now believe you need to have in it.
You focus on all the things that are glaringly missing. The people in your life, start to point out the long laundry list of things that you have yet to accomplish and compare you with those close to your age or younger who seem to be living that socially-accepted close to perfect life and because you’re hyper aware of this, and it STINGS- it drives you even further into the scarcity mindset.
Where even as you want more, desire more and work towards it, the one thing that drags you just from the finishing line- that you aren’t even aware is so close to you-, is the fact that you already know that you’re never gonna get there.
And the real reason that you’re never going to get there is because you’ve not been honest about what you really want in life.
You haven’t been honest about what lifestyle you truly would enjoy.
You have not been honest about the fact that you lost sight of your intuitive end goals a long time ago because you buried them deep in your psyche.
You haven’t been honest about the fact that you do NOT believe in the possibility of your life changing for the drastically better without some sort of cosmic sacrifice, (which means really that you have already doomed yourself to failure, even as you pretend to bury that thought).
All of that doesn’t deter you however, from wanting to prove those who doubt you wrong.
If anything, it drives you to all out war, and you hustle, grind, do all the things, but never just enough to actually win consistently, because deep down you know you’re not going to.
You just need a win. You just need something to show that you are working towards success, but whose version of success are you actually working towards?
For a long time, I thought success was checking off my grocery list of things to have, things I had to prove and living a life that was more professionally based than actually feeding my soul.
I spent hours researching how to make money from home, because I felt as if my job was making me crazy and I was convinced that I could make large sums of money quickly so that I could just enjoy myself without having to worry about money.
I wanted all the nice things- vacationing, expensive dinners because I love food, time to go to the gym, time to relax and unwind, etc.
And I was going to do ALL I needed to do because I wanted this and I SAW others living this, so I could too. Envious?
Of course not, I just wanted to live a wholly different life, just like those other people who were boldly boasting were as well!
At least that was what I told myself.
In reality, what I was doing was counterproductive to any of the things I wanted.
I stayed at home, researching how to build my business and tried a hundred marketing strategies, that promised to work with no large investment, even as I knew were not intuitively correct for me because I was now fully on into my DESPERATION mode and not the ‘I love what I’m doing’ mode.
I strained my eyes because I was forever staring intently into the computer screen, trying to figure out what I was obviously doing wrong, because the Experts all said they did this one thing and maybe I’m just not good at this… and instead of actually taking time to heal, I brainwashed myself into thinking a little strain was nothing and tried to make myself work even harder all to no better or further results.
I did not really work out, because I had no time to spare and if I did manage to squeeze in a few minutes, it was to work out the mounting frustration, I felt at STILL not living that glamourous life! Which meant that I didn’t allow myself to enjoy the fact that I was getting stronger and more flexible ; instead I became fixated on the fact that the scale was not decreasing as quickly as it damn well should be.
I did not really sleep or actually wake up feeling refreshed because my mind was turbulent and I could not shut off my thoughts or the web of increasing fears that wrapped tighter and tighter each day that I failed at my goals.
And in all of this, I spent rare time with my friends, ( citing mountains of work, no money and no free time) , got irritable with my family when they needed my help with anything (because seriously, can’t they see I’m trying to get stuff done? Why can’t they even try to appreciate what I’m trying to build here?)
I got progressively deeper and deeper into the mindset that I was a stupid failure who was never going to be one of those people who got to just lived life as they freakin well wanted and should just shrivel up and stop, because obviously I was never going to hack this thing.
Hindsight is 20/20 and now I can tell you that all of that stress and self castigation was not at all in line with what I was telling others or even myself about what I wanted in life.
So what was the root of this discrepancy in what I wanted in life and what I was doing?
My idea of being successfully happy was what was screwing with me and I suspect you as well.
Chatting with a friend of mine recently about life and why we got so frustrated about not having the things we wanted, we came to realisation that our mindset and the things we claimed to want were not our true goals.
It was a shock to realise that even as we were trying to change our lives, we were still essentially people pleasing!
Yes, we wanted to break away from the status quo of white picket fence, and an ok job, where we worked up to 5 weeks of VACATION. Where the amount of money you had declared your life a success or failure and wanted to chart our own path, but in the bak of our minds, the things that were driving us were not our true wants.
We were still protecting them by hiding them from ourselves and getting frustrated when we were unable to achieve them.
What did that mean for us then?
It meant that I had not actually decided for myselfwhat success ACTUALLY looked like, what it would feel like and mean to me; rather, I was looking at OTHER people’s ideals of success and how they were creating that for themselves.
Isn’t that crazy?!
My borrowed idea of happy success and accompanying envy was what was holding me back from living a life that was truly free and happy. I was grinding and hustling because I was told I needed to and I believed that that was true, even as I was focusing on the things that didn’t mean as much to me.
So if I truly wanted to be living the lifestyle that I knew deep down I wanted, then I had to be honest with myself and most importantly, reconnect to my true goals and desires.
So yes, others were building families, getting promotions, working their dream jobs, vacationing in exotic places around the world and making money in their sleep.
And if I’m honest with myself, while I was impressed by those things, they were not necessarily what I wanted for myself and not intuitively right for me in the way others were getting those results.
That revelation lead me to do more mindset work, to dive deeply into myself and pull out my truth from the depth of the vault I had hidden them within.
When I really did the mindset work and put in real effort to envision the kind of life I was truly craving, I found that what was truly important to me were not necessarily tangible, rather there were about moments.
Do I want to make the money? Yes.
Do I want to live the carefree life and own all the creature comforts that I see? Hellz Yes.
Are those the most important things in my life? No
And that shocked the crap outta me, because if they weren’t that important, then should I be focusing on them with the intensity that I had been?
What I did learn was that what was the most important things in my life were my experiences, my moments spent with those I loved and who loved me.
It was about being fully present in the moment and making lasting memories. It was about feeling healthy and brimming with joy at being in my own skin. It was about being self sufficient, and enjoying the life I was creating one action and thought at a time.
Those were the things that truly mattered to me and as such those were the things that needed to have my intense concentration. And the more I focused on those things, the more the other things came into being.
The other things, the money, the business and the luxurious things I wanted, all came to being as they were necessary to support my other goals.
( So I wanted to spend more time with my family, then I had to ease off of the long hours and late nights. Same thing for really taking care of myself and as I did that, my business started to actually take off, because I was now taking actions that were not from desperation, but from a true place of confidence and allowing the business to actually breathe!).
I started giving energy finally to the things that fuelled my soul and allowed them to light up the rest of my life. Something so simple now as I write it, took memonths to give myself permission to do.
Afterall, I had been taught to focus on making the money at all costs, on working so hard at my job, and it felt weird to not be giving 12 hours to trying to make money and build the empire.
It felt weird at first to actually spend weekends ‘slacking’, to allow myself to rest, to not be obssessed with the things that were going wrong and to celebrate no matter how small the things that were going right
Even now I’m still struggling and learning to just be! Years of conditioning will not go away overnight. it takes WORK!
And I’m very happy that I have allowed myself to come to this firm decision to shift my mindset so that it was more centered on me truly enjoying life, instead of waiting for when things were ‘perfect’ to start.
And what really helped me to get to this pinnacle point in my life?
This workbook changed my life and the lives of those who have worked through it, by reminding us that we are not in a race with others and that our self is the thing that we need to be nourishing and helping to truly grow.
It has 8 core themes, that as you work through guides you to insights about how you really want to create and nurture the life you want.
That means reconnecting and learning yourself as you would with a BFF. What do you really want, what really drives you etc.
How to identify, conquer and resolve your limiting beliefs and triggers.
What stories you have created around your life due to your experiences and how they have been shaping your life and how you can use them to empower yourself.
How to start truly trusting yourself implicitly.
How energy really works and how you can use it to actually manifest your real end goals.
Understanding what intuition really is and how to use it to guide you through your best life.
Creating and envisioning your Next Level Self and bridging the gap between the You of now and that Boss level person.
TheLevel Up Journal Prompter is one of the only resources on the market that challenges you to really introspect and not only express yourself but also gives you homework so that you take real time actions that will give you real results.
Nothing is ever gained by just journaling and writing ( sadly), you also need to do the work, after you’ve gained the honest insights.
The journaling will help to clarify your path, now you have to actually take the steps and the Level Up Journal Prompter is perfect for guiding you to action for making the life you wanted for real.
So are you ready?
Are you ready to STOP being envious over other people’s way of live and boldly live your own, freely, happily and enthusiastically?
Are you ready to intuitively describe your own version of what YOUR successful life looks like?
Are you ready to pursue your real end goals and reap the benefits of putting your energy and effort into the things you ACTUALLY want to accomplish and live for yourself?
If you answered, yes to any of these, it means that you are ready to take action!
It means that you are over settling for less than you KNOW you can have!
You’re SO ready to get to the good part, ( career success, love, money etc) !
You’re ready for things to FINALLY start going your way!
You are ready to evolve and become not only a happier version of yourself, but a levelled up version of you!
The you who no longer people please, or gets frustrated when people don’t get/ scoff at your vision but gets the results they actually desire, even as they are scared.
The You who is so invested in enjoying their live RIGHT NOW that they are ready to make it a reality and the Level Up Journal Prompter is the first step towards starting the real work to getting there.
There is a certain feeling you get right in the middle of your heart when you’re about to be ambushed by emotions you’d rather not deal with, specifically those you have been resolutely pushing down into the deep recesses of your mind as often as you can.
Here’s the funny thing about emotions, they simply do not care how much you try to avoid them!
Trust me, whatever you are resisting emotions wise, will persist until you acknowledge, validate and finally release them.
Worry and frustration would slither into my head in the form of tension- a tightening around my forehead- leading to the kind of pressure that always threatened a headache, before releasing the floodgates to my insecurities and fears.
An answering call of frantic energy would then assail me and I have been known to call my friends in a miserable panic, saying I felt as if I was ‘ missing something’, or ‘needing just one win’ and of course ‘ not being able to focus’, because of this repressed energy.
It’s a kind of energy that is hard to explain, but once you’ve felt it, you know exactly what it is, the slippery slide to stress-thinking to becoming overwhelmed and you just feel ‘off’.
If you have ever felt like the above, then I have great news for you!
It’s time for you to release that pent-up emotion in your body that you’ve been trying to bury within yourself or just been straight up trying to avoid.
It’s time to release them by feeling them without any judgment, without attaching any meaning to them and by simply acknowledging that they are there and not fighting against them.
You release them by facing them, feeling them, realizing what they are trying to communicate to you and then release it all.
Releasing these emotions from your mental vault, will allow you to gain improved energy and more clarity, as well as the ability to ground yourself so that you can actually achieve the goals you want to.
The real challenges come when you are unwilling to face the emotions, because you are afraid or ashamed of what they could mean if you dared acknowledge them.
Another challenge arises when you aren’t even aware of what it is you actually need, and because of that, react by pushing more into the feelings and resulting limiting beliefs, creating more frantic energy and spiraling into the emotional abyss.
And that is the exact opposite of what you want to feel or think.
When it comes to emotions, you need to remember that they are mercurial and very fluid. You have the ability to flow through several emotions within a span of second, and each emotion comes with its’ own thought and reactive action.
The thing is, you decide how you react to your emotions and whether you attach significance to them, a meaning to them or even an action to them in those moments of feeling them.
Emotions are neither good or bad nor right or wrong.
They are in fact simply indicators of how a situation or event is triggering you at that moment. Emotions are indicators of how you are actually reacting to the presented stimuli. Every emotion you feel is valid and worthy of being acknowledged by you the person who is currently feeling them.
Acknowledging your emotions does not mean reacting, it means that you get to take a moment and realize what you are actually feeling towards that event or stimuli.
It’s the body’s way of alerting to you to the tone of the event/ situation/ person you are interacting with.
The purpose of acknowledging you emotions is not to fix them or make them go away- that’s you avoiding still- rather it’s to release their energy so you move from being blocked and overwhelmed to clear and mission focused again.
Ultimately, you decide which emotion fueled action if any, you will take.
So when you feel overwhelmed or like a storm is brewing in your head and body that simply means it’s time to look inwards and feel the feelings.
What I usually do and what I hope will also work for you is a light form of meditation. Please note, my idea of meditation is sitting quietly on my bed, sometimes with calming music, or with just the sound of the sea and simply being.
It always starts with me feeling anxious just being so still and doing nothing, but the more I feel like that or realize that I’m seeking distractions, it’s how I know that I need to reconnect with myself.
So I sit there, allowing my mind to zone away and drift, after I’ve made it clear that I am determined to be on this drive. I won’t lie.
It is not easy to just let your mind wander, because when you’re so accustomed to distracting yourself with work or TV or other activities, it does feel boring and weird to just day dream, yet it is one of the best ways to dive under the surface and see what is really brewing within yourself.
So let yourself get bored, frustrated. It’s ok to feel frustrated that your mind is wandering; you’re on the right track if that happens. It’ll feel like you’ve zoned out and your breathing will naturally align with your mental state, so just let go.
Sometimes focusing on one object that makes me feel calm helps me to let go easier and, I just mean looking at it and allowing my mind to wander off, without trying to pick, choose or avoid any of the thoughts that come up in that state.
When you’re ready, ask yourself, ‘What is underneath this feeling?” “What am I avoiding feeling in this moment?”
When you get the answer, allow yourself to look at it, converse and understand where it stems from, what it is trying to tell you.
You may feel anxiety tightening around your head, fear creeping into your veins or stress at something you feel unfinished, whatever it is, acknowledge it, and see what it is signaling to you.
Then release it.
This happens when you acknowledge the emotion, and the thing it is trying to signal in you. Once emotions have been acknowledged, they basically release themselves.
We run into trouble when we try to fight, bury or cling to one emotion, feeding into it and making it into something more than it was meant to be by adding our insecurities and attaching meaning to it.